And I am not just talking about the awful weather we have been having lately.
So I have been taking medication to help with all my fertility issues. The Provera did its job and I started then I took the clomid. It seems as though the clomid did it's job, but I may have taken the ovulation test to early...On top of all that we found out that both Nick and I have fertility issues. I won't go into what is going on with him, but if this round doesn't work we will be going in for Insemination. I feel sad and this darn rain isn't helping.
In addition to all of this my Dad is having surgery today and so I am worried... ug what a day.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Save Your Judgment
Today a man flew a small plane into a building containing IRS offices. At the moment there is no official word on fatalities; they are saying 2 ppl were injured and 1 person is missing. He left a long letter trying to explain his actions. Of course people are responding in so many ways, calling him crazy or a nut job. I say save your judgment. I DO NOT agree with his actions, but they were the actions of a broken depressed person. He was lost and financially devastated. There are thousands if not millions more people out there that face the same issues. I don't agree with his actions but I am in no place to judge him or call him names. I think the important thing to do is to pray for those affected by his actions and to keep moving forward. Name calling doesn't do anyone any good.
I'm thinking of you Austin.
I'm thinking of you Austin.
So it begins
Let the baby making begin! For the last 12 days I was taking something called Provera, this was used to start the menstrual cycle. I usually only have a period every three months or less so that doesn't help when trying to make a baby. Once I finally started I had to wait until day three to start the Clomid, which I did today.
I had some pretty noticeable side effects on the Provera. My moods were all over the place and I hate feeling that way. Most people I have talked to or read about didn't have a reaction to the Provera but they did to the Clomid. Needless to say I am worried that the Clomid is going to cause even crazier mood swings if I was affected by the Provera. I hate feeling out of control. I can catch myself at times in the moment of craziness, but usually it's after the fact when I start thinking about what got me so angry or sad. Nick and I both hope that we conceive baby #2 this go round so I don't have to go through the meds again.
The excitement that I feel right now is so crazy and yet it is kind of muted. I am afraid to get my hopes up. There are so many hurdles. First I have to ovulate, then if I do ovulate I have to time everything just right and still there is only a 20-30% chance on getting pregnant. And that percentage isn't just for me that is the chance every women has every time they ovulate and try to get pregnant. 20-30% ... No wonder they refer to every baby as a miracle ;) We just want another child so badly...
Last night we had the opportunity to see what it would be like to have 3 children, 3yrs and under. It was interesting. We babysat for a friend of mine and her daughter, who is 6 months old (?) is teething. So she was not in the greatest of moods. I ended up holding her in a sling the entire time they were here. The little boy is 3, his bday is also in April so exactly a year older than Noah. He did great, played games, watched videos, and ate all his dinner. I wish I could say the same for Noah. Even though he didn't want my attention or Nicks for that matter (he wanted to play with his friend) he didn't seem to like the fact that a lot if not all of my attention was focused on the teething baby. We finally had to take him to his room and let him have some alone time. It was a challenge but we did it. Of course if we do have 3 children they will not all be under three, unless of course by some twist of fate we have twins. That would be neat, weird, scary...
Well I better run, Noah James says "I wanna play games!" which means I see mommy with her computer and I want to play with it.
:) W
I had some pretty noticeable side effects on the Provera. My moods were all over the place and I hate feeling that way. Most people I have talked to or read about didn't have a reaction to the Provera but they did to the Clomid. Needless to say I am worried that the Clomid is going to cause even crazier mood swings if I was affected by the Provera. I hate feeling out of control. I can catch myself at times in the moment of craziness, but usually it's after the fact when I start thinking about what got me so angry or sad. Nick and I both hope that we conceive baby #2 this go round so I don't have to go through the meds again.
The excitement that I feel right now is so crazy and yet it is kind of muted. I am afraid to get my hopes up. There are so many hurdles. First I have to ovulate, then if I do ovulate I have to time everything just right and still there is only a 20-30% chance on getting pregnant. And that percentage isn't just for me that is the chance every women has every time they ovulate and try to get pregnant. 20-30% ... No wonder they refer to every baby as a miracle ;) We just want another child so badly...
Last night we had the opportunity to see what it would be like to have 3 children, 3yrs and under. It was interesting. We babysat for a friend of mine and her daughter, who is 6 months old (?) is teething. So she was not in the greatest of moods. I ended up holding her in a sling the entire time they were here. The little boy is 3, his bday is also in April so exactly a year older than Noah. He did great, played games, watched videos, and ate all his dinner. I wish I could say the same for Noah. Even though he didn't want my attention or Nicks for that matter (he wanted to play with his friend) he didn't seem to like the fact that a lot if not all of my attention was focused on the teething baby. We finally had to take him to his room and let him have some alone time. It was a challenge but we did it. Of course if we do have 3 children they will not all be under three, unless of course by some twist of fate we have twins. That would be neat, weird, scary...
Well I better run, Noah James says "I wanna play games!" which means I see mommy with her computer and I want to play with it.
:) W
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
It's been a while since I updated so I thought it was about time. The holidays were exhausting! Noah, Millie and I drove to TX at the beginning of December because I was in a wedding. The wedding was beautiful and went off with out any major issues. It was nice having time to spend with friends prior to the xmas excitement. I got to go out with everyone on several occasions and spent way to much money. At the end of the month we all drove home and were soooooooooo ready!
During all the craziness of the holiday Nick's Uncle Brian was getting worse and worse. His liver just couldn't do what it needed to anymore and he gave us a few scares. Luckily he had a transplant today! There is a part of me who feels sad for the person who died but I can't help but feel overjoyed that Brian is getting a chance at life! Now for the recovery.
My weight loss has slowed down but I am not giving up hope that I will reach my goal my the 1 year anniversary. I am trying to get back into the swing of things and getting my rear to the gym on a regular basis. I am at 111 lbs lost so far and look forward to the day when I say I met my goal!
The doc (surgeon) gave us the ok to start trying for baby #2! Unfortunately the weight loss did not increase my fertility. I am not ovulating. So step one is to take Clomid and hope that it works and gets me ovulating, then its up to Nick and I to do the rest. ;) I want a little one so bad. Please oh please work!
I am starting to think more and more seriously about opening a business. I think I would be great at running my own business. The idea I am tossing around is to open a mom friendly cafe. Something that is set up so that kids can play and moms can relax. There is a building down the road for sale that would be perfect and it's a great location. I just have to figure out how to write a business plan and get the capital to start. Oh the possibilities.
Well I better run it's late and I need sleep!
W
During all the craziness of the holiday Nick's Uncle Brian was getting worse and worse. His liver just couldn't do what it needed to anymore and he gave us a few scares. Luckily he had a transplant today! There is a part of me who feels sad for the person who died but I can't help but feel overjoyed that Brian is getting a chance at life! Now for the recovery.
My weight loss has slowed down but I am not giving up hope that I will reach my goal my the 1 year anniversary. I am trying to get back into the swing of things and getting my rear to the gym on a regular basis. I am at 111 lbs lost so far and look forward to the day when I say I met my goal!
The doc (surgeon) gave us the ok to start trying for baby #2! Unfortunately the weight loss did not increase my fertility. I am not ovulating. So step one is to take Clomid and hope that it works and gets me ovulating, then its up to Nick and I to do the rest. ;) I want a little one so bad. Please oh please work!
I am starting to think more and more seriously about opening a business. I think I would be great at running my own business. The idea I am tossing around is to open a mom friendly cafe. Something that is set up so that kids can play and moms can relax. There is a building down the road for sale that would be perfect and it's a great location. I just have to figure out how to write a business plan and get the capital to start. Oh the possibilities.
Well I better run it's late and I need sleep!
W
Friday, November 27, 2009
Thankful for a new life
The past 6 months have given me something to be extremely grateful for, a new life. I have lost a total of 102lbs so far and I feel like an entirely new person. I have more energy and overall I am happier. Looking back at old pictures I feel very ashamed of my weight; how could I have let it get so bad. The cycle just kept going and going and I continued to grow. It's pretty depressing to think about, but that life is behind me.
It's an odd feeling being happy with who you see in the mirror but I look forward to getting used to that feeling. Yesterday was Thanksgiving and I have to say it was one of the best days we have had in the NE in a long time. We were surrounded by friends, children, laughter, conversation, and warm love. I am so thankful that we have made some real friends up here as we miss our TX family and friends like crazy. In a few days Noah, Millie and I will be making our trip home. While I am not looking forward to the drive or being away from Nick for 2 weeks; I am looking forward to seeking Kryssy get married and visiting with family and friends.
I am thankful.
It's an odd feeling being happy with who you see in the mirror but I look forward to getting used to that feeling. Yesterday was Thanksgiving and I have to say it was one of the best days we have had in the NE in a long time. We were surrounded by friends, children, laughter, conversation, and warm love. I am so thankful that we have made some real friends up here as we miss our TX family and friends like crazy. In a few days Noah, Millie and I will be making our trip home. While I am not looking forward to the drive or being away from Nick for 2 weeks; I am looking forward to seeking Kryssy get married and visiting with family and friends.
I am thankful.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Stress and Saddness
The last few weeks have been... I don't really know how to describe them.
Let me start by saying that my very best and dearest friend lost her Mom. I didn't know JoD all that well but in the short time I had the honor of knowing her she taught me a lot about compassion, love, and strength. JoD lived life with a smile and a kind word for everyone. Though she struggled she lived life to it's fullest. I know she is proud of the family she helped raise. I am glad to know that she is dancing somewhere now, watching over her family with infinite love. Her death broke my heart in so many different ways. I am so far from home and I feel awful not being there for Sara. I know there was little if not nothing I can do to shield her from the pain she is feeling but the fact that I can't be there to try....
I am glad I wrote about that first. It really helped me put the rest in perspective. Nothing I am going through right now can compare. And I should be grateful.
My trip to Texas for the Bachelorette party-
This is a huge source of stress for me. I am not really worried about the actual party, I think I could plan it in my sleep and I have the beautiful Jessi working with me. I am worried about leaving Noah. I have never been so far away from him ever and I have never spent that much time away from him. Nick also has never had him all on his own. Please don't get me wrong; Nick is a great dad, but he doesn't know all of Noah's little idiosyncrasies like I do. I am going to miss my little man so much! I know I am going to have a blast when I get there, it's just getting there.
Being a Landlord- Sucks; especially when your forever away and have to get things done by proxy! and that is about all I am going to say about that. Except THANK YOU JESS AND SARA!
On the positive Nick and I are really enjoying going to our Church. It is a Unitarian Universalism church; which really embraces our liberal beliefs. It's nice and we so far really like it! I am working with the Youth Group and am really excited. I am still doing the Junior League. We are deciding on our provisional project tonight. Looking forward to that, I just hope everyone stays civil. I noticed a few slight tempers and attitudes last week.
Weight loss is going ok. I tend to hit this slumps every now and again. I am staying at my current weight, but I'm sure it will start dropping again soon. It's like the body just needs a day or two to balance out. I have also had the munchies a lot lately; which sucks when your stomach is the size of a golf ball.
Well I better run. Hope life is treating you well!
W
Let me start by saying that my very best and dearest friend lost her Mom. I didn't know JoD all that well but in the short time I had the honor of knowing her she taught me a lot about compassion, love, and strength. JoD lived life with a smile and a kind word for everyone. Though she struggled she lived life to it's fullest. I know she is proud of the family she helped raise. I am glad to know that she is dancing somewhere now, watching over her family with infinite love. Her death broke my heart in so many different ways. I am so far from home and I feel awful not being there for Sara. I know there was little if not nothing I can do to shield her from the pain she is feeling but the fact that I can't be there to try....
I am glad I wrote about that first. It really helped me put the rest in perspective. Nothing I am going through right now can compare. And I should be grateful.
My trip to Texas for the Bachelorette party-
This is a huge source of stress for me. I am not really worried about the actual party, I think I could plan it in my sleep and I have the beautiful Jessi working with me. I am worried about leaving Noah. I have never been so far away from him ever and I have never spent that much time away from him. Nick also has never had him all on his own. Please don't get me wrong; Nick is a great dad, but he doesn't know all of Noah's little idiosyncrasies like I do. I am going to miss my little man so much! I know I am going to have a blast when I get there, it's just getting there.
Being a Landlord- Sucks; especially when your forever away and have to get things done by proxy! and that is about all I am going to say about that. Except THANK YOU JESS AND SARA!
On the positive Nick and I are really enjoying going to our Church. It is a Unitarian Universalism church; which really embraces our liberal beliefs. It's nice and we so far really like it! I am working with the Youth Group and am really excited. I am still doing the Junior League. We are deciding on our provisional project tonight. Looking forward to that, I just hope everyone stays civil. I noticed a few slight tempers and attitudes last week.
Weight loss is going ok. I tend to hit this slumps every now and again. I am staying at my current weight, but I'm sure it will start dropping again soon. It's like the body just needs a day or two to balance out. I have also had the munchies a lot lately; which sucks when your stomach is the size of a golf ball.
Well I better run. Hope life is treating you well!
W
Sunday, September 20, 2009
The Great, Good, and Annoying
The great news is that I am down 81lbs as of today! Which means I am right on target for my goal of 100bs by November. It's an amazing feeling to see the change; in my appearance, my attitude, and in my energy.
We all seem to be loosing weight and getting healthier
The good news is that New Haven and the North East in general are starting to grow on me. I love having seasons! The leaves are changing color and the air has that cool crisp feeling. We have been here for a year now and it feels a lot more like home, familiar...
Other good news is Noah is off the pacifier!!! No more Nuk for us! He still asks and we just tell him they were sent to the babies. Now to work on potty training...
And finally the annoying; Some may not find it annoying but I do! I am loosing weight so quickly I can't keep fitting clothes on my body. If we were rich it wouldn't be an issue but we aren't! I cannot afford to keep purchasing clothes. I have tried goodwill but not had any luck. Other annoying things; Noah doesn't want to take naps at all anymore. I thought I would have at least another year before he gave them up. He sleeps in the car when we go out but doesn't want to lay down in bed unless it's bed time (at night). Oh and he hit the "terrible 2's"! It's nothing to terrible but it's annoying.
In other news;
I am a provisional member of the Junior League of Greater New Haven. It seems pretty cool so far; we shall see how I feel about it when we start our project.
Halloween is around the corner and I am planning on making Noah's costume this year; He's going to be Peter Pan(so cute)!
Nick and I want badly to have another baby but we are supposed to wait because of the surgery... I think we just decided to let nature take it's course. I am praying that it will happen soonish, but only time will tell.
Texas should expect me in mid-October! I am coming in for a bachelorette party. It will be the first time I am away from Noah for that long and even scarier it will be the first time Nick will have Noah for more than a few hours by himself. I just have to keep telling myself it will be ok!
The house rented!!! We have tenants moving in next weekend!!! Thanks so much to Sara and Jess for working so hard at getting the house fixed up!
Well that's all for now. Can't wait to come back and tell everyone I am down 100lbs!
Happy Fall!
We all seem to be loosing weight and getting healthier
The good news is that New Haven and the North East in general are starting to grow on me. I love having seasons! The leaves are changing color and the air has that cool crisp feeling. We have been here for a year now and it feels a lot more like home, familiar...
Other good news is Noah is off the pacifier!!! No more Nuk for us! He still asks and we just tell him they were sent to the babies. Now to work on potty training...
And finally the annoying; Some may not find it annoying but I do! I am loosing weight so quickly I can't keep fitting clothes on my body. If we were rich it wouldn't be an issue but we aren't! I cannot afford to keep purchasing clothes. I have tried goodwill but not had any luck. Other annoying things; Noah doesn't want to take naps at all anymore. I thought I would have at least another year before he gave them up. He sleeps in the car when we go out but doesn't want to lay down in bed unless it's bed time (at night). Oh and he hit the "terrible 2's"! It's nothing to terrible but it's annoying.
In other news;
I am a provisional member of the Junior League of Greater New Haven. It seems pretty cool so far; we shall see how I feel about it when we start our project.
Halloween is around the corner and I am planning on making Noah's costume this year; He's going to be Peter Pan(so cute)!
Nick and I want badly to have another baby but we are supposed to wait because of the surgery... I think we just decided to let nature take it's course. I am praying that it will happen soonish, but only time will tell.
Texas should expect me in mid-October! I am coming in for a bachelorette party. It will be the first time I am away from Noah for that long and even scarier it will be the first time Nick will have Noah for more than a few hours by himself. I just have to keep telling myself it will be ok!
The house rented!!! We have tenants moving in next weekend!!! Thanks so much to Sara and Jess for working so hard at getting the house fixed up!
Well that's all for now. Can't wait to come back and tell everyone I am down 100lbs!
Happy Fall!
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