March 21, 2010

So I missed writing yesterday but I have a good excuse. :)
We woke around 8:30. I made coffee and breakfast for Nick. Then I dragged the family to the YMCA. The Hamden Y is not as nice as the one we usually go to in Milord, but it did the trick. Sadly we couldn't take Noah swimming bc the entire pool was being used for lessons. After working out we were all famished so we grabbed lunch. It was Noah's nap time so I drove the boys home and then went shopping. The family was going to a post St. Patrick's day party and I had to make a dish. The party started at 4, I came flying through the door and 3:20 and started cooking. We of course were late but we made it to the party and were there until midnight! Poor Noah, but it's not like he stays up like that all the time.
It is so much fun hanging out with our friends! Our kids have fun and we have a fun. Can't really ask for more!

Today is another Beautiful day. We are starting slowly and enjoying the peace and quiet. I have YRUU (youth group) tonight and I am not sure how I feel about it. I get the feeling the kids see the adults as invaders and a lot of the time we are treated as such. Don't get me wrong I really like all these kids but I don't like feeling so "outsider". We shall see how it goes. I have high hopes that it will all get back on track.
Blessings to you all.

March 19, 2010

The windows are open and it is nice having the fresh air pouring in the apartment. Things get so stale over the winter and you almost forget what if feels like to let the sun warm your skin. I sat outside today watching Noah play with a friend outside for more than an hour and it brought back so many great memories of just being a kids and soaking in the fresh air and sun. Today has been a good day. Noah and I went to the YMCA. I worked out on the treadmill while he played then we swam for about 30 minutes. We drove to East Haven to visit with a friend and pick up our bike. Now I am enjoying the silence and as I said before the fresh air. I tried to find some Spring/Summer clothes to wear today and have had no luck with the fit. I new this would happen of course but it is going to be another financial hit to have to purchase more clothes.
I hope this nice weather keeps. It is so much easier to be positive when the sun is shining.
May the sun shine where ever you are!

March 18th 2010

I woke up today determined to stick with my plan to stay positive. Today thus far has been a success. I got out of bed as soon as Noah was up, granted he slept till 9am today (YAY) but I was up when he decided to wake.
As if I needed more proof that I am not pregnant I started this morning. But I am trying to stay positive and remember that If I started without medication that means I ovulated last month. So the clomid did work. Once we were dressed and I dealt with getting locked out of the house we were ready to head to the gym. The work out was great. I jogged/walked on the treadmill and then used the weight machines. Following the workout we went to have lunch with Nick at his work. It's always nice going to see him. We always get lots of stares as children and spouses don't often come to visit. Now I am sitting at home while Noah naps, enjoying the beautiful day! I am so happy we can open the windows again!
I am forcing the happy face and forcing the positive attitude, but it does seem to be working so far.
1 day at a time.

The Power of Positive Thought

Well this morning the Pregnancy test yet again reads negative. I hate how that damn stick holds so many hopes and it so easily dismisses them. I have been in mourning for a few days now. Nick doesn't quite understand because to him, what do I have to mourn. It's not like I was pregnant and lost a baby. In my mind I lost that potential baby, the might have been. That is what I am mourning. The hormones and disappointment have not helped the weightloss either making me feel even worse. So today in my journal this is what I wrote and decided;

I need to get it together! I haven't dropped a lb in a while and it's because I am letting my sadness get the better of me. I will eventually get pregnant but in the mean time I need to stay fit and healthy.
I need to make the following changes;
*Wake early and start the day with Nick and Noah
*Work out a min. of 3x a week
*No Crap Snacking- No matter how sad, depressed, or bored I am
*Increase my water intake. I was doing so good!
*Stay Positive!
*Journal/Blog daily
*Take time for me. It is not selfish to want personal time.
I need to remember to live/lead by example. Noah needs healthy parents to follow. My goal is to loose another 10lbs by my May check up.


I can do this, I just have to shake off the funk and get it done! I am hoping Positive Thought will have a positive impact on all aspects of my life.