Dear Baby

Dear Baby,

 One day you will learn about the events that happend a mear 25 miles from our home. The deaths of children your age and women Mommy's age. One day you will realize how lucky we are to still have each other. We are a lucky family Baby. We have each other still and your innocence is intact. You still believe you can be an astronaut so you can be with "Star Wars" and be a Jedi. Santa still comes down the chimney and travels the world in one night. The tooth fairy magically takes your teeth away. My hugs and kisses can console and cure you. But one day the innocence that I am fighting to keep for you will fade. On this day let me first say; I am so sorry but unlike Peter Pan we all grow up and learn the truths that aren't always beautiful and magical.
Next don't ever let this world push you down. Yes bad things happen. Sandy Hook can never be explained. Nothing can console the families and community. People will move on but like a scar, even if it fades it's still there. Our job though is to keep living and to find the magic where we can. 20 children and 7 women will never again have the chance to live and find magic. I and I hope you will live well for them.
Baby in the wake of this horrible event love and friendship has poured from around the world. A man took lives but the world is trying to lift up an entire community. There is magic in that. There is magic in the donations, toys, cards, and words of love from strangers. There is magic in men and women standing side by side to pay respect.
One day you will know the truth. Life isn't pretend magic. Life is real magic. It may be harder to see or find, but all things worth having are worth fighting for. Find the real magic in your life and I promise it will be a happy one.
I love you Baby, every moment of everyday.
Mommy

An Open Letter to Bryan Fischer and Mike Huckabee

Dear Sirs, (though I think neither of you deserve the address)

Sandy Hook hit very close to my heart. I am still in a fog of sadness and grief for the families.
I am a resident of Connecticut. I live 25 miles from Newtown. My Husband works with people who have been traumatized by this event and I think just about everyone in the state has a friend or a friend of a friend who lost someone or was traumatized. I am also the mother of 3 beautiful children. A 5 year old Kindergartener and 2 year old twins. I was a 1st grade and Kindergarten teacher prior to staying at home with our children.

Now that you know who I am let me respond to the remarks you made following the horrific incidence that occurred in our state.
First lets just read those comments so we can be clear.

Mr. Fischer you first;
The question is going to come up, where was God? I though God cared about the little children. God protects the little children. Where was God when all this went down. Here's the bottom line, God is not going to go where he is not wanted.

Now we have spent since 1962 -- we're 50 years into this now--we have spent 50 years telling God to get lost, telling God we do not want you in our schools, we don't want to pray to you in our schools, we do not want to pray to your before football games, we don't want to pray to you at graduations, we don't want anybody talking about you in a graduation speech...

In 1962 we kicked prayer out of the schools. In 1963 we kicked God's word out of ours schools. In 1980 we kicked the Ten Commandments out of our schools. We've kicked God out of our public school system. And I think God would say to us, 'Hey, I'll be glad to protect your children, but you've got to invite me back into your world first. I'm not going to go where I'm not wanted. I am a gentlemen.

Source HuffPost Religion

Now you Mr. Huckabee

"We don't have a crime problem, a gun problem or even a violence problem. What we have is a sin problem," Huckabee said on Fox News. "And since we've ordered God out of our schools, and communities, the military and public conversations, you know we really shouldn't act so surprised ... when all hell breaks loose."

Source HuffPost Politics

So we are on the same page? Great, then let me just say;

How could you be so awful and ignorant. You are both supposed to be Men of Faith.  Do you truly understand the teachings of God, of Jesus? 

Among the dead there was more than one faith represented and I would bet that even among those of shared faith it was worshiped differently for each of them.  To say that this happened because we don't "allow" God into our schools is reckless and ridiculous. God, who ever your God may be, is not in a building. God is in your heart. In your mind. In the way we live and the way we treat others. God is in the living things of this world.  God cannot be kept out of a building. God is carried through the doors of buildings everyday on the hearts of those who believe. Prayer may not be mandated in school, you may not be required to open with a hymn and a prayer, but it is not forbidden either. Believers all over this country say prayers all day long. Silent or aloud. Believers gather for prayers at flag poles or in clubs after school. I had students who would say a prayer before biting into their sandwich. Where was God? Well, God was with each and everyone of the victims. Gods heart broke, because he too is a parent.  I don't pretend to have an answer for Why all this happend or Why any bad thing happens to good people. I do however know one thing, it wasn't because God let it happen. 

So Sirs, maybe you should spend sometime reading the bible and praying on your own. Oh and one other word of advice; If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all. 

Sincerely, 
Wendy

What Kept Me Up Last Night

Like so many others I have been troubled by the events that unfolded yesterday in the Classrooms at Sandy Hook Elementary. Like all parents I held my children tight and thanked God that they were safe. I cried many tears yesterday. My thoughts kept running to those poor babies. Terrified. I kept thinking about my son, who is in Kindergarten at a school 25 miles away from Newtown. I continued thinking about my former Kindergarten and First grade students and how I would have done anything to protect them. My thoughts led me to their parents who I considered friends and how heartbroken they each would be. I was nauseous. When my husband came home we stood in a very long embrace. Wordlessly thanking that it wasn't our sons school. I feel so selfish. I feel pain and anguish for the families. My imagination won't even let me get near the greif, terror, hurt, pain that they are feeling. Sandy Hook has taught me (as so many things do) that every day is a gift that we can't take for granted. Our children are a gift that we should cherish. In the days and weeks to come there will be many more things to take away and discussions to have but today I will continue to hug my children. I may even climb into bed with my son again tonight and secretly whisper to him my love while he dreams of more beautiful things.

I'll end with a prayer;

May the healing love of faith, family and friends wrap tight around you. In your time of loss and sadness may you be comforted. I pray for healing and peace in your heart and mind. May the light of God fill you when you are empty, comfort you when you are sad, and lift you up when you can't stand on your own. Blessings and Peace be with you always.