50 lbs

So I reached my first goal. I hoped to be down 50 lbs by the time I left for Texas and I have reached and am surpassing that goal. :)
It feels great. I am down about 6 sizes or so depending on what clothing I am purchasing. My bra size is down; which to a lot of women would seem terrible but for me its great! I would much rather be a 40DD than and 42DDD. Besides they are by no means small and even if they were hey their boobs! :)
The working out is difficult. I think most moms would agree it's hard to squeeze in time especially when it takes time away from your child. I have also been very busy in the mornings which is the only time I am able to go. But I will get back on track. I have to.

In other news I am torn between two things I want. I love being a full time mom, but there is a part of me that feels I should be working. Not because I don't do enough, believe me I work full time. But because we would be in such better financial standing if I could bring in some extra income. I think I may be offered a job today and I think I am going to turn it down. I feel awful about it but I have to do what's right for me. The amount of work for the pay + paying for childcare just doesn't seem worth it. I also really enjoy the freedom of being able to pickup and go at a moments notice. To work or not to work, that is the question.

Well my trip is coming soon and I am beyond happy to go home for a visit. It is going to be busy but such is life!
See you all soon!
W

Tired

This has been a busy week for me. I am babysitting an 18 month old little boy along with Noah everyday. Noah is handling having another child around ok. He has a difficult time sharing me, but is doing well with the toys. The babysitting would not be so stressful if it were not for the fact that this little boy cries like crazy. The first day he cried for about an hour and a half, today it was just 45 minutes are so. But he is so demanding. He constantly wants to be held or entertained. I am so used to Noah who can entertain himself for the most part and will let me get other things done. So by the time he heads home I am so tired I don't want to do anything. But I am trying really hard to keep up with the house and laundry so I have less to do when we leave for TX.

I am doing well with the weight loss. I am down 47lbs and about 4-6 sizes depending on what I am wearing. It's still a drop in the bucket for me but I am really starting to see a difference in the shape of my body. It's a great feeling. My eating habits really fluctuate. Some weeks I eat every meal and have a snack. Then some weeks are like this one where I might eat some cheese and maybe lunch. I am excited that I will be able to reach my goal of 50lbs down before our trip.
Well I have to get up early again so I'll update more another time.