The past 6 months have given me something to be extremely grateful for, a new life. I have lost a total of 102lbs so far and I feel like an entirely new person. I have more energy and overall I am happier. Looking back at old pictures I feel very ashamed of my weight; how could I have let it get so bad. The cycle just kept going and going and I continued to grow. It's pretty depressing to think about, but that life is behind me.
It's an odd feeling being happy with who you see in the mirror but I look forward to getting used to that feeling. Yesterday was Thanksgiving and I have to say it was one of the best days we have had in the NE in a long time. We were surrounded by friends, children, laughter, conversation, and warm love. I am so thankful that we have made some real friends up here as we miss our TX family and friends like crazy. In a few days Noah, Millie and I will be making our trip home. While I am not looking forward to the drive or being away from Nick for 2 weeks; I am looking forward to seeking Kryssy get married and visiting with family and friends.
I am thankful.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Stress and Saddness
The last few weeks have been... I don't really know how to describe them.
Let me start by saying that my very best and dearest friend lost her Mom. I didn't know JoD all that well but in the short time I had the honor of knowing her she taught me a lot about compassion, love, and strength. JoD lived life with a smile and a kind word for everyone. Though she struggled she lived life to it's fullest. I know she is proud of the family she helped raise. I am glad to know that she is dancing somewhere now, watching over her family with infinite love. Her death broke my heart in so many different ways. I am so far from home and I feel awful not being there for Sara. I know there was little if not nothing I can do to shield her from the pain she is feeling but the fact that I can't be there to try....
I am glad I wrote about that first. It really helped me put the rest in perspective. Nothing I am going through right now can compare. And I should be grateful.
My trip to Texas for the Bachelorette party-
This is a huge source of stress for me. I am not really worried about the actual party, I think I could plan it in my sleep and I have the beautiful Jessi working with me. I am worried about leaving Noah. I have never been so far away from him ever and I have never spent that much time away from him. Nick also has never had him all on his own. Please don't get me wrong; Nick is a great dad, but he doesn't know all of Noah's little idiosyncrasies like I do. I am going to miss my little man so much! I know I am going to have a blast when I get there, it's just getting there.
Being a Landlord- Sucks; especially when your forever away and have to get things done by proxy! and that is about all I am going to say about that. Except THANK YOU JESS AND SARA!
On the positive Nick and I are really enjoying going to our Church. It is a Unitarian Universalism church; which really embraces our liberal beliefs. It's nice and we so far really like it! I am working with the Youth Group and am really excited. I am still doing the Junior League. We are deciding on our provisional project tonight. Looking forward to that, I just hope everyone stays civil. I noticed a few slight tempers and attitudes last week.
Weight loss is going ok. I tend to hit this slumps every now and again. I am staying at my current weight, but I'm sure it will start dropping again soon. It's like the body just needs a day or two to balance out. I have also had the munchies a lot lately; which sucks when your stomach is the size of a golf ball.
Well I better run. Hope life is treating you well!
W
Let me start by saying that my very best and dearest friend lost her Mom. I didn't know JoD all that well but in the short time I had the honor of knowing her she taught me a lot about compassion, love, and strength. JoD lived life with a smile and a kind word for everyone. Though she struggled she lived life to it's fullest. I know she is proud of the family she helped raise. I am glad to know that she is dancing somewhere now, watching over her family with infinite love. Her death broke my heart in so many different ways. I am so far from home and I feel awful not being there for Sara. I know there was little if not nothing I can do to shield her from the pain she is feeling but the fact that I can't be there to try....
I am glad I wrote about that first. It really helped me put the rest in perspective. Nothing I am going through right now can compare. And I should be grateful.
My trip to Texas for the Bachelorette party-
This is a huge source of stress for me. I am not really worried about the actual party, I think I could plan it in my sleep and I have the beautiful Jessi working with me. I am worried about leaving Noah. I have never been so far away from him ever and I have never spent that much time away from him. Nick also has never had him all on his own. Please don't get me wrong; Nick is a great dad, but he doesn't know all of Noah's little idiosyncrasies like I do. I am going to miss my little man so much! I know I am going to have a blast when I get there, it's just getting there.
Being a Landlord- Sucks; especially when your forever away and have to get things done by proxy! and that is about all I am going to say about that. Except THANK YOU JESS AND SARA!
On the positive Nick and I are really enjoying going to our Church. It is a Unitarian Universalism church; which really embraces our liberal beliefs. It's nice and we so far really like it! I am working with the Youth Group and am really excited. I am still doing the Junior League. We are deciding on our provisional project tonight. Looking forward to that, I just hope everyone stays civil. I noticed a few slight tempers and attitudes last week.
Weight loss is going ok. I tend to hit this slumps every now and again. I am staying at my current weight, but I'm sure it will start dropping again soon. It's like the body just needs a day or two to balance out. I have also had the munchies a lot lately; which sucks when your stomach is the size of a golf ball.
Well I better run. Hope life is treating you well!
W
Sunday, September 20, 2009
The Great, Good, and Annoying
The great news is that I am down 81lbs as of today! Which means I am right on target for my goal of 100bs by November. It's an amazing feeling to see the change; in my appearance, my attitude, and in my energy.
We all seem to be loosing weight and getting healthier
The good news is that New Haven and the North East in general are starting to grow on me. I love having seasons! The leaves are changing color and the air has that cool crisp feeling. We have been here for a year now and it feels a lot more like home, familiar...
Other good news is Noah is off the pacifier!!! No more Nuk for us! He still asks and we just tell him they were sent to the babies. Now to work on potty training...
And finally the annoying; Some may not find it annoying but I do! I am loosing weight so quickly I can't keep fitting clothes on my body. If we were rich it wouldn't be an issue but we aren't! I cannot afford to keep purchasing clothes. I have tried goodwill but not had any luck. Other annoying things; Noah doesn't want to take naps at all anymore. I thought I would have at least another year before he gave them up. He sleeps in the car when we go out but doesn't want to lay down in bed unless it's bed time (at night). Oh and he hit the "terrible 2's"! It's nothing to terrible but it's annoying.
In other news;
I am a provisional member of the Junior League of Greater New Haven. It seems pretty cool so far; we shall see how I feel about it when we start our project.
Halloween is around the corner and I am planning on making Noah's costume this year; He's going to be Peter Pan(so cute)!
Nick and I want badly to have another baby but we are supposed to wait because of the surgery... I think we just decided to let nature take it's course. I am praying that it will happen soonish, but only time will tell.
Texas should expect me in mid-October! I am coming in for a bachelorette party. It will be the first time I am away from Noah for that long and even scarier it will be the first time Nick will have Noah for more than a few hours by himself. I just have to keep telling myself it will be ok!
The house rented!!! We have tenants moving in next weekend!!! Thanks so much to Sara and Jess for working so hard at getting the house fixed up!
Well that's all for now. Can't wait to come back and tell everyone I am down 100lbs!
Happy Fall!
We all seem to be loosing weight and getting healthier
The good news is that New Haven and the North East in general are starting to grow on me. I love having seasons! The leaves are changing color and the air has that cool crisp feeling. We have been here for a year now and it feels a lot more like home, familiar...
Other good news is Noah is off the pacifier!!! No more Nuk for us! He still asks and we just tell him they were sent to the babies. Now to work on potty training...
And finally the annoying; Some may not find it annoying but I do! I am loosing weight so quickly I can't keep fitting clothes on my body. If we were rich it wouldn't be an issue but we aren't! I cannot afford to keep purchasing clothes. I have tried goodwill but not had any luck. Other annoying things; Noah doesn't want to take naps at all anymore. I thought I would have at least another year before he gave them up. He sleeps in the car when we go out but doesn't want to lay down in bed unless it's bed time (at night). Oh and he hit the "terrible 2's"! It's nothing to terrible but it's annoying.
In other news;
I am a provisional member of the Junior League of Greater New Haven. It seems pretty cool so far; we shall see how I feel about it when we start our project.
Halloween is around the corner and I am planning on making Noah's costume this year; He's going to be Peter Pan(so cute)!
Nick and I want badly to have another baby but we are supposed to wait because of the surgery... I think we just decided to let nature take it's course. I am praying that it will happen soonish, but only time will tell.
Texas should expect me in mid-October! I am coming in for a bachelorette party. It will be the first time I am away from Noah for that long and even scarier it will be the first time Nick will have Noah for more than a few hours by himself. I just have to keep telling myself it will be ok!
The house rented!!! We have tenants moving in next weekend!!! Thanks so much to Sara and Jess for working so hard at getting the house fixed up!
Well that's all for now. Can't wait to come back and tell everyone I am down 100lbs!
Happy Fall!
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Feeling Good
It's so odd to feel so happy about my looks and weight. I am no where near what I need to be but the idea that I am down so much is making me feel great. My brand new clothes are starting to get to big and my rings are going to need to be sized down soon. It's a nice and new feeling to be proud of myself.
The trip to Texas went well. I was able to pull off a Bridal Shower and the Reunion. I know the shower went well. Everyone had a great time. I feel awful that I was not able to purchase the couple a gift yet, but throwing the shower cost so much money that I am going to have to purchase a gift for them another time. The Reunion went really well too. People seemed to enjoy themselves and I hope all the praise was truthful :) I hope by raising money I will make it easier for the next reunion. It was great to see family and friends. Noah and I will be heading to Cali this month for a visit as my Dad was not able to make it to Texas. I am looking forward to seeing my sister, brother and nephew but hate flying.
Well I better go, Nick wants to hit the hay and would like for me to join him
Good night all!
Wendy
The trip to Texas went well. I was able to pull off a Bridal Shower and the Reunion. I know the shower went well. Everyone had a great time. I feel awful that I was not able to purchase the couple a gift yet, but throwing the shower cost so much money that I am going to have to purchase a gift for them another time. The Reunion went really well too. People seemed to enjoy themselves and I hope all the praise was truthful :) I hope by raising money I will make it easier for the next reunion. It was great to see family and friends. Noah and I will be heading to Cali this month for a visit as my Dad was not able to make it to Texas. I am looking forward to seeing my sister, brother and nephew but hate flying.
Well I better go, Nick wants to hit the hay and would like for me to join him
Good night all!
Wendy
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
50 lbs
So I reached my first goal. I hoped to be down 50 lbs by the time I left for Texas and I have reached and am surpassing that goal. :)
It feels great. I am down about 6 sizes or so depending on what clothing I am purchasing. My bra size is down; which to a lot of women would seem terrible but for me its great! I would much rather be a 40DD than and 42DDD. Besides they are by no means small and even if they were hey their boobs! :)
The working out is difficult. I think most moms would agree it's hard to squeeze in time especially when it takes time away from your child. I have also been very busy in the mornings which is the only time I am able to go. But I will get back on track. I have to.
In other news I am torn between two things I want. I love being a full time mom, but there is a part of me that feels I should be working. Not because I don't do enough, believe me I work full time. But because we would be in such better financial standing if I could bring in some extra income. I think I may be offered a job today and I think I am going to turn it down. I feel awful about it but I have to do what's right for me. The amount of work for the pay + paying for childcare just doesn't seem worth it. I also really enjoy the freedom of being able to pickup and go at a moments notice. To work or not to work, that is the question.
Well my trip is coming soon and I am beyond happy to go home for a visit. It is going to be busy but such is life!
See you all soon!
W
It feels great. I am down about 6 sizes or so depending on what clothing I am purchasing. My bra size is down; which to a lot of women would seem terrible but for me its great! I would much rather be a 40DD than and 42DDD. Besides they are by no means small and even if they were hey their boobs! :)
The working out is difficult. I think most moms would agree it's hard to squeeze in time especially when it takes time away from your child. I have also been very busy in the mornings which is the only time I am able to go. But I will get back on track. I have to.
In other news I am torn between two things I want. I love being a full time mom, but there is a part of me that feels I should be working. Not because I don't do enough, believe me I work full time. But because we would be in such better financial standing if I could bring in some extra income. I think I may be offered a job today and I think I am going to turn it down. I feel awful about it but I have to do what's right for me. The amount of work for the pay + paying for childcare just doesn't seem worth it. I also really enjoy the freedom of being able to pickup and go at a moments notice. To work or not to work, that is the question.
Well my trip is coming soon and I am beyond happy to go home for a visit. It is going to be busy but such is life!
See you all soon!
W
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Tired
This has been a busy week for me. I am babysitting an 18 month old little boy along with Noah everyday. Noah is handling having another child around ok. He has a difficult time sharing me, but is doing well with the toys. The babysitting would not be so stressful if it were not for the fact that this little boy cries like crazy. The first day he cried for about an hour and a half, today it was just 45 minutes are so. But he is so demanding. He constantly wants to be held or entertained. I am so used to Noah who can entertain himself for the most part and will let me get other things done. So by the time he heads home I am so tired I don't want to do anything. But I am trying really hard to keep up with the house and laundry so I have less to do when we leave for TX.
I am doing well with the weight loss. I am down 47lbs and about 4-6 sizes depending on what I am wearing. It's still a drop in the bucket for me but I am really starting to see a difference in the shape of my body. It's a great feeling. My eating habits really fluctuate. Some weeks I eat every meal and have a snack. Then some weeks are like this one where I might eat some cheese and maybe lunch. I am excited that I will be able to reach my goal of 50lbs down before our trip.
Well I have to get up early again so I'll update more another time.
I am doing well with the weight loss. I am down 47lbs and about 4-6 sizes depending on what I am wearing. It's still a drop in the bucket for me but I am really starting to see a difference in the shape of my body. It's a great feeling. My eating habits really fluctuate. Some weeks I eat every meal and have a snack. Then some weeks are like this one where I might eat some cheese and maybe lunch. I am excited that I will be able to reach my goal of 50lbs down before our trip.
Well I have to get up early again so I'll update more another time.
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